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[Feb. 26th, 2006|02:25 pm] |
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Heya guys i know i havent written in a long time! i have been doing alright i need your help! ko i want to move back to waveland like soon like in a couple of weeks but! i dont know how to tell my dad i know im 18 but i dont know how to tell him! can you pleasehelp me and tell me what you think!
Well me and jesse are doing great! Feb 30 will be 1 year and 9 months ;) yay
almost 2 years...... ::silence:: wow thats a long time :) yay
Love and miss yall
Mel |
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| Heya Guys ive thought alot!! ... |
[Jan. 18th, 2006|06:55 pm] |
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Heya guys ive thought alot about what im doing next year! jesse and i have been thinking it over together... and and talking it over and over again i want to move out of this hell hole with my dad my 2 brothers and my gradmother! so ive thought alot about it and so i think i will move with jesse back HOME (waveland) this summer so i can spend my graduating year with my high school! i justhope i can have the oppritunity to try out for drum major again next year! god i miss all of you guys people here are freakin toooo redneck! well i just hope its worth leaving here to start my life with jesse and have all my friends by my side well not all my friends but all of you that are at home! well please comment on what you think! please im very interested to hear what you alll have to say!
oh and another thing....you guys will never know what i got ... ;)
i got a freakin TATOO!!! its beautiful jesse got one too with me he got his rubber ducky and i got a buterfly!! heheh im soo happy i thought it was going to hurt but it didnt :) im ready for another one:)
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|11:06 pm] |
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IM 18 BABY FUCKING YES IM LEGAL for somethings ;) i feel older
happy birthday for me :)
it was an ko bday
Love
Mel
i love jesse:) |
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[Dec. 5th, 2005|06:29 pm] |
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flash flash revolution is awesome for us poor people! but i wish i had ddr but... oh well !! i love you guys!
love
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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|09:08 pm] |
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Live is very unfair sometimes.... my 18th birthday is in 18 days (december 21) aand im kinda excited but if i cant even spend it with my best friends what is it besides just another day? christmas is comming and this will be the first year i cant spend it with my favorite and only maggie! ill be away from friends and my family. i know that im not the only one but its just so hard.
you guys i miss you so much just remember the good times ... and im hopefully comming home soon...
Maggie- Burger king ... you know what im talking about Johnny you do too ;) , MY FART THAT MADE YOU GAG OMG THAT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUS...noone will ever know;), best buy ... hehe (i pooed in the guys bathroom) .. remember when you slept at my house man we talked untill i dont know what time but we kept laughing and talking about weird things that people usually dont talk about hehe..just too many to write
please send me your phone numbers you guys so i can call you my phone is acting up but ill call you!
i was talking with my dad and i told him i want to try all i can so i can graduate this year! so that what im going to do! so i will try to go to prcc or something i just dont know yet!
me and jesse are doing great on NOVEMBER 30 was our ONE YEAR AND 6 MONTH anniversary! :)
i know i havent updated in a while its just so hecktik here and alots going on i just want everyone to know i love and miss all of you! please never forget me... please ...its just so hard to go on without being able to see my best friends i ever made and i just moved there and well... ill shut up...
please post an entry to me and tell me how you are doing! I FREAKING MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!
Bye Byea
LOVE ALWAYZ
Mel
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[Oct. 4th, 2005|06:04 pm] |
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Heya
wow its been a long time since i updated! im in defuniak springs florida! in the middle of freaking NOWHERE! but grr! im in school down here but i want to go home so much but i have no home along with everyone else on the coast! im in the band here playing clarinet something i dont want to do! this band sucks they got alll 3s last year at compitition!! they have 24 horn players and 9 guard this isnt a band this is a frekaing joke! now i miss bay high band soo much! i am going back when school starts or next semester when im 18 because my dad wont let me do what i want untill i am 18 so i cant wait for december 21!! my family is being really stupid an dmaking me really stressed always fighting an dgrrrr!!!well please everyone my cell number is 228-342-2836 please dont ever hesitate to call me anytime!!! please email me if you want spazomel42@hotmail.com i miss you guys soo much! has anyone tlaked to ms crider? just wondering! i love you guys and i miss you soo much please call email or comment to me! let me know your ok!! love you guys and hopefully talk to you soon!
Love Always,
Mel
PS
me and jesse are doing great:) (he bought me a promise ring its SOOO pretty!!! :D ) but just wanted to update
I Love Jesse Allen Burgess!!!
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|12:10 pm] |
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I am so bored!!! i love jesse sooo much! yesterday we went to his sister Springs house and we met her sister in law it was fun:) i got to mess around with Madi (his niece) she ssoooo cute shes 5 and his other niece Sage shes 9 months OMG!!! maggie you would die she is soooooo cute!!! i watched her for half the day!!! hehaha you wish you were me :)! but! it was kewl! jesse hates his family but i like them!:) hopefully they like me:) well imma go hopefully swim but right now jesses comming for lunch so ill make him a little sumthin sumthin ;) hehe! well bye byea
Love
Mel~
I Love Jesse Allen Burgess :):):) |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2005|08:40 am] |
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| | Me and jesses song Kc and jojo: tell me its real! :) | ] |
Heya everyone yesterday was the last day of band camp hehe! yay its was fun ;)! im glad i got to see you Jilean! and i wanna know how you are doing! ill try to call you today ko :)! How is everyone doing? im very bored! Jesse had to work this morning! i think my dad and i are going to go get a swimming pool from one of our family members ;) in Baton Rouge! yes!! :) maggie you know my number if you wanna come take up space in it ;) hehe ill let ya'll know when i have it hooked up we arent doing that this weekend i dont think! I want to do something! the pool party was fun you guys ;) although i couldn t see ;) hehe! i hope to see you guys before skewl starts in like 2 weeks! ill talk to you guys later i gotsta go eat breakfast! hehe :) ill ttyl!
Love
Mel~
I Love Jesse Allen Burgess!! |
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[Jul. 12th, 2005|11:31 am] |
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| | Me and jesses song Kc and jojo: tell me its real! :) | ] |
Maggie i have something for you! we made this song with sarah at granny and paw paws house like a million years ago!!!
We remade the Little Mermade song i dont know the name of it but you'll know what im talking about just sing it with the same tone and tempo!! hehe its funny
"Barbie's World"
By:Maggie, Melissa, Sarah!
Look at this store isn't it neat
Wouldn't you think my kitchens complete.
Wouldn't you think i'm a girl a girl who has everything.
Look at this tomb letters untold
how many wonders can one graveyard hold.
Lookin around you'd think sure shes got everything.
I've got forks and knives of plenty.
I've got axes and pitchforks gallor.
you want sporks?
I've got 3,278, but who cares no good deal.
I want Ballerina Barbie!
I wanna be were the plastic people are
I wanna see wanna see um dancin hoppin along on those...
whats the word again?
OH plastic feet!
Poppin there heads off they dont get to far
Plyers are required for pullin yankin
Strolin along down to the whats that word again?
Microwave!!!
In where they melt
In where they explode
In where they stick all day to the stove!
Wonder and free
Wish i could be part of there world!
Bet you on there land they understand yet they dont
marry there daughters.
Gay young women
Sick of killin
Ready to get Strait
and i'm ready to know
what the strait people know
ask them my questions
and get some answers
whats a gun and why does it whats the word?
BOOM!!
whens it my turn
wouldnt i love .. Love to
KILL, EXPLODE, DECAPATATE, EVISORATE
the plastic world up above!
Out of the stove
Wish i could be..
PART OF YOUR WORLD!
THE END
heeh if anyone read and finished the whole thing YAYA good for you hehe! we made that like along time ago how long maggie? man it was so fun!!
im so ready for camp tomorow! is anyones else? :) i hope so! im very bored i thought id share this song with everyone:) hehe!!!
Love,
Mel
I Love Jesse Allen Burgess :):) |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2005|07:17 am] |
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1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. if I were to apply an o'clock to you , I'll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. Put this in your journal.
that was in johnnys journal and i put my name ;) :)
thank you johnny :)
~MELISSA
1. your peppyness
2. phantom of the opera
3. 5 24
4. peppy
5. at buger king with maggie...yeah...you know what im talking about
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| Heya peeps :) |
[Jun. 23rd, 2005|08:28 am] |
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i know i havent updated in a long time! ive been doing alot!!! hehe ive rearanggeed my room :) yay and i am so bored! maggie i miss you that picture of you and sarah is funny hehe! does sarah have a livejournal? i hope everyones summer is a great one! i havent done anything! hehe well i mean i have but nothing to big! jesses birthday is comming up!!!:) Augest 10 he will be 19 yay:) i love jesse :)well imma go sing! i love to sing! ill ttyl! write me call me!! im bored! love you guys:) bye byea johnny ill give you your book back if you and micheal give me and jesse back the movie hehe ;) well bye byea
Love,
Mel |
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| WHAT UP!!! |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|08:41 am] |
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Heya !!
| SquirrlyMel may explode without warning | M
EXPLOSIVE |
From Go-Quiz.com
so yeah ;)
im boreed SOMEONE please call me :) |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|02:04 pm] |
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Heya im just sitting here being bored holding my dwarf bunny poopsie :) hehe! waiting for jesse to get off :) hoping maggie would be able to come over! :) in my dreams for her to actually sleep over:)
last night i watched InuYasha movie 2! it was really good:) hehe im just really bored! if anyone ever wants to do anything please just call come over something im in need of attention and fun :) hehe! well ill try to update alot more:) ill ttyl:) DO SOMETHING WITH ME IM BORED!!! :) bye byea:)
~MEL~ |
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| Heya Guys!!! |
[May. 30th, 2005|05:20 pm] |
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HEYA EVERYONE TODAY IS MINE AND JESSES ~ONE YEAR~ YAYAYAYAYAY
hehe i love jesse:):) |
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[May. 29th, 2005|11:35 pm] |
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heya im sorry i havent wrote in a while im writing because im up late being scared and alone in the only big storm in the summer :-[ ;) how funny hehe i cant sleep so imma write! i miss talking to you maggs! micheal thank you so much for letting me borrow ddr its an awesome game everyone in my house played it hehe even my grandmother;) it was funny! ill give it back to you one day;) hehe! stephen dont be mad at me cuz i messed around with you! i know you didnt know it was me but it was and i said sorry so dont be a butt and be mad thats just being gay! i love you maggie and i miss hanging out with you ! CONGRATS MAGGS AND ZSAUCE FOR YOUR 7 MONTHS :) yay!!!me and jesse one year TOMORROW YAY! one year thats a long time:) hehe im so happy i love jesse so much! i got him a nautica shirt and a card im hoping i can get him something else its just i have no money! well we go in freaking JULY for my dad to try to get full custody:-[ i cant wait its been freaking forever now i miss edward so much when he goes over to my moms house! he doesnt get baths well he does like every other night and he comes over that other night so he came in from my dad picking him up and he had cheetos cheese on him and around his mouth! i just cant believe my mom that was all he ate today:(! why would you want to treat a child like that! my mom forgot to pick up james friday! james goes over every other weekend and she was supposed to pick him up welp she never showed up! what a great mom huh? well im just hoping edward gets my dad for full custody! well i just wanted to update and im watching pretty woman hehe well i guess imma go! i love jesse so much and im just so happy and excited that we have been together for a year:) call me people im so freaking bored:-[ hehe:) ill ttyl :) bye byea
i love jesse allen burgess!
Love,
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[May. 13th, 2005|09:01 am] |
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well last night was my band banquet and my mom left in the middle of it didnt say bye or anything i still hadnt gotten like 2 awards that hurt me! she wants me and my little brothers keys to OUR house! its kinda funny she told me like 2 days ago "melissa i want you to know that i love you and you are welcome here anytime" yet the next day she wants mine and james' keys back! if she really wants it back ill give it to her and i WILL say " what the hell its not like im going to steal from my own house!" (unlike her) i will never be like my mother! shes such a little bitch! well im sorry if you want to hear my aunt and her boyfriends opinion about this go to deviantart.com and go to well hold on let me see if this works.... http://sadisticrabbit.deviantart.com/journal/5339469/ go there and read what her journal says! so you'll know im not the only one hurt from this!!!!well thank you magggie!!
CONGRATS TO EVERYONE for last night! this year was great and i cant wait untill next year:)!
ko bye byea
thank you
Love,
~MEL~
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[May. 12th, 2005|08:17 am] |
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you guys im really sorry the past couple of days my entrys have been real long but i just cant help it! when i think of my live journal i think of just puting everything in it like whats going on and how i feel at the moment and when im hurt! i talked to my mom again last night but whatever! todays the banquet so i guess i have to be happy about that! i dont even know what im gunna make! yesterday i got an AWARD i didnt even know i was getting! but they called me to the auditorum with other people and i dint know what i was doing! but when they said for the parents to stand and be claped for! i saw my dad and my grandma in the front row a and my dad was waving to me like a maniac it was hallarious! my dads so funny! but i was like those little poops they got the letter in like a week ago and them and jesse brad and jenn all kept it from me i was like its a consperisy! heehe it was funny! i got an award in Computer App.! i didnt even know i was going to get one from that class i thought i was going to get one from band or something! but it was kewl! but well imma go cuz i dont want to bore you every day! hehe so well ill ttyl!
thank you all!:P
i love you maggs
i love you jenn!
I Love Jesse Allen Burgess For like ever!(i was thinking about shaggy off of scooby-doo)hehe;)
~were like two peas in a pod man~ shaggy |
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[May. 11th, 2005|08:19 am] |
last night wasnt very much like the other two dayz but it was kind of worst but kinda better! well i had contest concert at PRC (we made ALL 1S BABY!!!!)
::cough cough:: :) but i called my mom on the way there to remind her i wouldnt be home untill about 5 or so but noone answered! i called on the way home 2 times! no answer! so im like either shes not there or she doesnt even want to talk to me! Maggies my witness! well its not like i was gunna just sit around and hoping shed pick up the phone so i called jesse and he came to pick me up! i got back about almost an hour before we were supposed to get home from PRC! so we went to my dads house to just talk and stuff! its not like my mom even remembered my concert contest today she didnt even remember shes such a two faced ho! well me my dad jesse brad and my maw maw were just BSn and my dad said he got aressted this morning for uh.. wait i think it was something abuse! from when the hurricane was comming! my dad never even thought about hitting my mom but she said he hit her and well i guess the cops are slow or my mom called them about it! but my dad has a court haring next thursday and i will me there with james and jenn to tell thim that shes lieing! well you havent heard the latest! ko jesse drops me off about an hour and half after we got back it was about 530 i walk in sure enough the balding shits there! well i walked in and mom was like (well that morning jesse called me and said "my tire is flat do you want to wait or do you want yoru dad to pick you up?" i said i want my dad to pick me up") so now mom asked me why didnt you tell me you were leaving this morning i was like mom jesses tire was flat and dad picked me up to bring me to him! (which was at my maw maws house) she said why didnt you wake me up! i didnt answer her! so i told edward to come to my room and me edward and his little friend Tommy played Candyland and we started to play Monopoly but its kinda hard playing that with two six year olds hehe! but i had fun! while we were playing that mom walks in and is like
~~"since you hate me so much im getting married FRIDAY" i looked at her i wanted to punch her in the face! that bitch only thinking of herself! she leavs and i call jesse and dad and i called maggie! she thought mom was crazy! but then mom said "if you want to go to your dads house then go! i dont care! but edward stays! dont ever depend on me again" WHAT THE HELL shes telling me her daughter that! what the hell is her problem! i told dad and jesse and jenn that i wanted to go over to his house so they typed up a thing that mom had to sign to be SURE it was ko for me to go over there! so beore jesse and brad got here to get her to sign it i was like "mom are you sure its ko for me to go to dads" she said yes melissa then i said" can you sign something to just be sure" she said im not signing anything im not gunna call the cops melissa your old enough to make your own desitions! OHHH ko so NOW im old enough but jsut 2 DAYZ ago i WASNT old enough! my moms dumb! so while im in my room getting everything ready brad and jesse come up and the balding man answers the door and starts shit and brad and jesse are just trying to keep it civil the balding man wouldnt let them talk to mom he pills a stick from behind the door and starts swinging it in jesses face and brad kept saying are you thretning us? if you knew brad he is the kind of person to keep it calm he kept his kewl the whole time but hehe jesse was in my yeard saying bring it come on just bring it! hes a crazy little shit i love him! well im walking aout the door with all my stuff and the balding man started calling the copps on jesse and brad! the balding man said "im going to get you (jesse) for stagitory rape" that guy is crazy! so i have all my stuff in jesses car and i was about to get in and brad was like melissa i dont think its a very good idea that you come with us because hes calling the cops! so i walked in in rage god i hate that guy! so my mom was like why didnt you go with them! i said because i didnt want to get introuble and i didnt want them to get introuble! and becaouse he called the cops! while i sat in my room for a couple of seconds i heard the balding man say" that little boy is going to jail in the morning for stagitory rape she can go find herself another little boyfriend!" like that guy has the NERVE to ruen my life by treating brad and jesse like krap! well the bells about to ring but to summerize it i walked and ran to maggies house! then my dad picked me up from there! i stayed with my dad last night! my dad is going to try to get full custody of me and edward now!~ |
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[May. 10th, 2005|08:12 am] |
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it seems like right now in my life it just keeps getting worse and worse! well me and jesse are great! i love him so much! this has to do with my mom and only my mom! i told her some stuff last night maybe i shouldnt have but i dont give a fuck anymore! no matter what she says im old enough to state my own opinion and im "old" enough to freaking understand! i feel like crying all the time! i mean i told my mom alot of shit last night but ill summerize it for ya'll!;)
~i told her i didnt want to live with her!
>she said "you will come and live with me every other weekend! untill your 21!!!!
~i told her i didnt want some shit face guy i dont know to live with me and my little brother!
alot more1!!
~~~~THE BALDING MAN IS FREAKING MOVING INTO MY ~HOUSE~ THURSDAY!
~~~~ oh yeah and MY MOM AND HIM ARE GETTING MARRIED IN 3 WEEKS!!!!
three weeks!
ive only met the guy like 2 times! i dont even want to look at the man and i have to live with him i told mom i didnt like him and i didnt ever want to!
she was like melissa why do i try with you because everytime i try to tell you the truth you keep bringing up when i lied to you!1
oh come on!!
she said well you know a while back you used to lie to me!
i said omg mom kids lie its WAY DIFFERENT for you to lie! your supposed to be a GOOD rolmodel!
shes such a bitch i hate her! i dont hate anyone and i never call anyone a bitch but my mom is! if you knew her you would say the same! ~Maggie isnt my mom a bitch and a lier and does shit behind me and my little brothers back?
i dont even want to go home i cant wait untill jesse calls or comes to pick me up but i wont be going places when the shit moves in because i dont want edward to be stuck with him! i stay home and i play games with him last night jesse helped me out to buy me and edward Candyland:)! i love jesse! maggie its a good thing you didnt come over last night;) well we didnt talk untill i came back from the movies 11 oclock and she didnt leave me alone untill about 1 and i didnt go to sleep untill about 130 i cryed myself to sleep!
mom was like ko ill call it off with him! i said no mom go and live with him and have a happy life! me and edward will leave! she was like no melissa! whatever bitch! i hate her ko ill leave and hurt inside some more! she told me melissa the only thing that shoould be on your mind right now is school and being a teenager! well i cant be a teenager with a bitch ass mom like her i told her! i grew up so much in the last year! i told her she changed since the day she told dad she wanted a divorce! i said you changed into a freaking crazy women! her responce was im not crazy! hell yeah she is! and i cant believe i didnt see it before and i cant believe i didnt tell her how i felt from the beginning! god im sorry i just cant hold this in! i dont know what to do anymore! ... i cant take this!
(on other news me and jesse went to hudsens last night and he bought me a corse light (beer whatever its called) and wind pants to go with it and a swim shirt looking thing and we went to the movies too see house of wax! freaky asss movie! you have to see it!)
well thank ya'll for everything!
I Love Jesse Allen Burgess!!!!!!!!!
Love ALWAYZ,
~MEL~
(DO YA'LL THINK I DIDNT THE RIGHT THING?) i need to know if i did the right thing by telling my mom how i felt and everything!?
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| What up my Biotches;) FUCK life exept for LOVE! |
[May. 9th, 2005|08:46 am] |
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what up guys? im in my keyboarding class doing a website;) oh what fun! ...not really :-[! so how was your weekend? mine was... kindof ko! saterday was great! me and jesse and britt w. went to the flea market with my dad and edward(my littlest brother) it was fun! then after that jesse and britt and i went to eat at uh.. los trace amegos! then kristina and daniella walk in and they came and ate with us! then we all went swimming and then we got icecream and stuff:) it was fun! then that night we went and saw amnityvillle horror! (again) but it was good! SCARY OMFG! i didnt know it was true! but newayz that was fun! but sunday "MOTHERS DAY" was totally different! well me jesse my dad james and edward (my 2 little brothers) went to wal-mart to get my grandmother a mothers day present! we made her a garden! it was real nice! then i had to go to my grannys house(my moms mom) >:[ the bolding man was there! my mom MAKES me say hi to that f*cker! i said it VERRY sarcastic! he left like 10 mins after that! hell i want to spend mothers day with my mom! did i not even hardly! i hung out with maggie and stephen the rest of my time there! we watched ty-boe ;) (i sware you could see his wood when he was doing that hmp the ground move) come on maggs and stephen you know you saw it ;) come on ! heheh i almost peeed on myself ;) .....:-[ but uh.. back to my story! I Love Jesse! ko back on subject!:) when me and edward and my mom get back home we were doing kewl and she was like imma order some pizza ko! (she doing the *i want to buy your love* thing) and i hurt and i cry because edward believes her and he doesnt understand! (hes 6) her and the balding man want to bribe him and all this but i just hope that edward doesnt take it in and believe them! but newayz we werent home not even 10 min and guess who drives up... uh ! oh ME OH PICK ME!! I KNOW I KNOW!!! BIG BIG your correct ! the f*ucking balding man! so i got edward and went to my room! i will try my hardest to alwayz keep edward by my side when that fat sh*t is there! so he left after a while and shes showing a pic to me of his daughter and his granddaughter and she says (see if you agree with me! yo should never tell a 6 year old this) melissa you could be a aunt and edward you could be a uncle! we just freaking met this guy!!! and shes getting married in a couple of months! you wanna know how i found that stuff out! she was like is it ko that i tell you we want to get married! i was like yeah id hope you'd tell me and not freakin do it behind my back like everything else! oh well were getting married in A COUPLE OF MONTHS! she wasnt even going to tell me! id didnt even know! i met the guy like 2 weeks ago! my mom and granny told me oh they didnt start dating untill after the divorce! THE DIVORCE WASNT FINAL UNTILL 2 WEEKS AGO! omfg and well for those of you that dont know my dad was in the army for 22 years and when he retired he gets a retirement paycheck every month and in the beginning of my mom and dad getting a divorce i was like mom are you going to take dads retirement! and she was like no melissa thats not even a thought! and you know what she gets every month HALF of my dads F*cking retirement! she thinks she deserves it that two time little b*tch! and you know what she told me after i said "mom you liked to me you said you werent taking dads retirement and you now get half of everything! if you got anything you should have got only a freaking quarter!" i dont think she deserves anything! i told her "from the beginning all dad wanted was me edward and james but all you wanted was everything else!" (lots my dad had! and lots my grandmother had, my dads retirement, ...should i go on) like my dad says ... hehe shes mrs. crabs ( off of spongebobsquarepants) she wants "money money money" you have to say it really fast hehe! but oh after i told my mom all of my opinions she had the nerve to say" oh melissa you shouldnt even be talking about the divorce you dont know whats going on your not old enough to understand you have to be an adult." so i said (i started to cry) "oh ko mom so i have to wait untill im 18 (which is in a couple of months) to let you know how i feel and my opinions" she was like your not old enough so i said "ko mom im just a little kid" she said no but your not old enough to know whats going on and your not an adult! omfg me talking to my mom yesterday made me almost completely HATE my mother! and you know the IRONIC thing it was f*cking mothers day! that f*ck head the balding man was there untill well i really dont know it was after 9! i went with jesse to talk to my dad! i asked him if it was ko if i asked if me and edward could be with my dad full custody too! becuase i only have untill im 18 ti do anything i want but edward has like A REALLY long time and i do not want edward to be stuck with mr and mrs f*ck head and f*ck face! (mr and mrs crabs) ;) ne smokes and edward has asma! god .... thank god for maggie and jesse and my dad and jenn and brad or i wouldnt know what the f*ck to do!!! im getting realy stressed out and i want to cry all the time but i have to suck it up!
please tell me this doesnt mean what it i think it does....
my mom has a calender in her kitchen and in the 12 of may it said
- lonnie added to lease-
please god tell me id doesnt mean what i think!!!!
im the biggest freaking retard! i should have got out with me and edward when we were in court but i didnt know ! i thought this would have never happend! im so freaking dumb!!
i hate my mom! shes a f*cking Cunt! (as jesse would say)
i just want to cry so much i just cant! you know whats sad when im sad at my moms and i cant use the phone i cry to edward! i wish he knew what was going on! when i cry about this he starts crying and is like (i miss my bunny) hehe its funny cuz he sees me crying and hes like i wanna cry about something! ... sorry but ill go and leave! please help me what should i do!! should i really try to get my dad to get us full time! i dont want to make edward suffer with living with my mom i dont either!
FUCK i forgot during the summer we stay 2 weeks and both houses!!!!!
man im so fucking stupid!!!!
sorry i just wish i had someone to talk to please help tell me what i should do!
I love Jesse Allen Burgess! he has been with me threw everything i woudlnt know what to do without him!
i love you maggs! thank you for everything thank you for friday:) ...:(
I love you jenn and brad! you alwayz know what to say:) :(
well i love you guys thank you!
bye byea......
Love,
~MEL~ |
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